'The person i met in Heaven\r'

'I stood at that blank, motionless. Shock had taken over my body desire a disease. I started shaking; my body going into dread mode. I collapsed, tears streaming bolt shore my face. I couldnt move. I righteous sit, carriageing, pure(a). I screamed, and then I was in integral darkness.\r\nThis was the last memory going by dint of my head before…\r\nI undecided my eyes. As I sat up to see where I was, I mat up a cool childs play against my cheeks. I saw that I was lying in the middle of a massive line of business with trees surrounding it. I knew where I was orderly outdoor(a). I had been thinking ab place this send for cardinal years. I looked around, this place was the same, precisely, it precisely had a softer atmosphere then I remembered. The cant seemed to glow. Almost comparable a dream. Except, this wasnt a dream, this was real. I got up to look around, and then suddenly I hear a fathom.\r\nâ€Å"Well, well, well. You made it then?” the voic e laughed. â€Å"Never couldve imagined that!”\r\nI spun around. â€Å"Katy?” I stood there, staring at her. I had dreamed of this s since I was a teenager. I had plotted every word, every movement, only when now, no words ran through my head. Just emotions and memories.\r\nâ€Å" be you alright? Looks wish youve seen a ghost,” she chuckled. â€Å"God, I crack myself up!”\r\nâ€Å"Am I dreaming?”\r\nâ€Å"Nope, youre in Heaven! To be honest, Im surprised you made it!”\r\nThe atmosphere cooled, and it matt-up like old times again.\r\nâ€Å"What do you mean? I was more(prenominal) odoriferous than you!”\r\nWe both laughed, then, silence. It suddenly felt awkward.\r\nâ€Å"Im so mordant Katy. I neer pull in you were so upset with your life. I dislike myself; I wanted to see you, to verbalise to you. I †I…”\r\nMy words came out so quickly, rushing out of my mouth. The sky darkened from a sunny glowering to a deadly black, and pictures of the past seemed to step to the fore all around us.\r\nâ€Å"Lauren, shut it! What are you? Forty-Five? And youre still going on rough that? It wasnt your fault, okay? Stop blaming yourself. Ive been reflection over you for thirty years and there are so many things you couldve done. You sour down so many opportunities to spiel new people and…” she paused, â€Å"you average had no confidence in yourself. And thats because of me.”\r\nShe looked as defencelessly as she did when her parents died in that car part when she was fourteen. Being in care had messed her up a bit, and I knew that she had been on anti †depressants for a while. But wouldnt anyone be like her in her situation? I had never expected her to kill herself.\r\nI sat down next to her, then, finally break of serve the silence, I spoke.\r\nâ€Å"Why?”\r\nThe word duck soup through the air like a dart. I looked at Katy.\r\nâ€Å"I get along you were u pset about your parents but…”\r\nI stopped to think about what I was saying. Scared of what her reaction might be if I said the wrong thing.\r\nâ€Å"You seemed to be managing fine” I said.\r\nâ€Å"I dont live. I conscionable… I felt like I could manage. I stopped victorious my tablets, and then everything seemed to go downhill. I fancy about what happened quite a lot. I blamed myself for everything. I knew I shouldntve, but I did. I got more and more depressed, taking everything so seriously. Like, that time when Louise Painsley called me a ‘useless whore, middling because I messed up in our music performance?”\r\nI nodded, non quite sure of what to say, but before I had time to think, she continued.\r\nâ€Å"Well, everything just used to hit me like a punch in the stomach. Every pocketable thing. It sounds stupid, but it just built up. I couldnt manage anymore, I just wanted to go. To be with my family. And away from… everything .” She looked at me. â€Å"Im sorry that I didnt speak to you. I just didnt want to bother you with all my worries. I just knew what I wanted to do, so I did it. But deep down you knew that, so why did you mess up your life over it? I just dont get it Loz. You were my best mate. Why would it suck been your fault?”\r\nI thought about my answer, but to be honest, I had no idea. Finally, I just said everything that I felt.\r\nâ€Å"All these years I had just thought about you, and the fact that I was having fun when you were gone. It just didnt life right. I suppose thats okay for the first some months right? But I know I shouldntve dragged it out. I just didnt feel right. I felt like I was betraying you in some way.”\r\nWe looked at separately other in a crafty way. In a way that meant not to carry on with the conversation. That it was finished and didnt ingest to be mentioned again.\r\nI sighed with relief. It felt like a massive weight had been raise from my chest. I grabbed Katys hand and we walked around the place that I had been thinking about for thirty years. The place where me and Katy spent most our time. A massive field with trees surrounding it. I felt a cool breeze against my cheeks. I felt at placidity with myself. This was my heaven, and nobody could ever take it away from me again.\r\n'